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It's been almost seven months since my second baby was born. Not coincidentally, it's been almost seven months that I haven't felt like myself. I've been having a hard time since becoming a mom for the second time around, and I'm beginning to understand why. The days have lost their luster for me, and I'm finding that it's becoming more and more difficult to get through them.
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The feeling that has dominated the last several months is guilt. I feel guilty that I'm not enjoying motherhood to its fullest. More often than not, I'm in tears by the end of the day. Most of the time, I can't even pinpoint what started my emotional breakdown.
After having my first daughter, I went through the baby blues for a few days. Once that postpartum hormonal surge quieted down, things were good. I took C. on walks, we played outside, we cuddled a lot, and I was happy. This feels vastly different. This time around, I've holed myself up in my house. It's been really hard for me to get out. I'm so overwhelmed at the thought of taking two very young kids out, that I almost always avoid it. This, among other things, has made me feel like a failure as a mom.